So Many Changes

It feels like too much has happened in the past few days. My brain is swimming (this could also be due to the fact that I stayed up until around 5:30 am yesterday...this morning...with Stina) and I think it's time to dump out some of its contents. Most of these are changes that are occuring in my life. Time to recount the ones I can think of right now.

First off, there's the medication. Come on, you all knew it was coming. ;-) I'm not gonna be ashamed to write about this, because I know few people who read this blog anyway. For the past few months I've been going in to see a shrink. I was extremely wary of this at first, but he's a really nice guy and I can definitely see myself going back regularly. As a rule, I don't trust strangers with the secrets about me that I prefer to keep buried six feet underground. But...it was kind of necessary for me to open up to him, ya know? I mean...he's my shrink. (I never thought I'd ever use those words..."my shrink"...weird.) What brought this about, you ask? Well, Dan tested positive for ADD, so Mom decided to test herself and have me tested too. It's sort of a genetic thing. It's not as pronounced in me as it is in Mom or Dan, because there's definitely more of my dad in me than anything else. However, I still have it. And now I'm medicated. It actually is helping me in ways I never thought possible.

Yesterday was my first day on it, and I must say, it was extremely weird. All of a sudden I got this random urge to go out and change my appearance in a drastic way...well, it's not that drastic compared to most people, I guess, but in my case...drastic. Mom wanted me to go get my ends trimmed (because let's face it, they felt like a horse's tail), and at complete random I decided to get some layers. They're very foofy now, because I just washed my hair, but I think I could get used to them. But that's not the big thing. I got my ears pierced.

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Who'd have thought it? I figured it was about time for me to do it, because I've sorta been the tomboy all my life...you know, just "one of the guys"...but now I'm...well, I guess I'm a woman now. Time to start acting like one, right?

I'm steadily getting better at switching between chords on the guitar...but I screwed up the tuning like whoa and I may need help getting it back. Bah. My stupid tuning machine LIED. Liars go to hell, dangit.

I miss Emily. I need to be with her sometime this week.

Love to all,

Miranda.